To Those Who Liked Me Better When I Was Abused

You liked me as a quiet, meek, first-to-clear-the-table, last-to-speak-up girl. You liked me voiceless.

You wanted me submissive, obedient—powerless—and happy about it.

You told me to just keep submitting because it would all turn out okay. You said God would work everything out for good, but then you went home and minded your own business because you aren’t God…

JournalCait WestApril 25, 2022spiritual abuse, abuse, survivor, healing, friends, enabling, trauma, ptsd, exvangelical, exfundie, exfundamentalist Comments

Silent No More

Sometimes I write because I want to talk back to the patriarchy, the fundamentalists, the Vision Forum thought leaders who spoke into my life so much, with so much damage. Who put law above love. I want to be authentic with who I am and what I have experienced, speaking after so long of being unable to use my voice. . . .

JournalCait WestOctober 29, 2020silence, patriarchy, feminism, misogyny, survivor, abuse, spiritual abuse, emotional abuse, church abuse, churchtoo, trauma, fundamentalism, vision forumComment